Monday, 5 December 2011

Sometimes life sucks!

I'm not sure how to start this or where it will land up but as blogs goes, you may have realised this is pretty much a you get everything blog.  

As a family we have had a crap week.  We took our 20month old bullmastiff in to the vet a week ago Thursday last.  He wasn't right and had gone off his food a bit and had started to pull his head to the right and looked sometimes like he had enjoyed a beer or two on the sly.  Vet was a little mystified so Billy stayed over and they could sedate him and check his ears.  Friday we picked him up, ear infection diagnosed, and armed with painkillers and antibiotics we took him home.  By Tuesday he was no better & Wednesday worse.  Took him back in Thursday and he stayed in again in the hopes that a steroid injection would hep fight the ear infection.  Friday he was still the same - by this time my brave boy could not even sit let alone stand and tears were never far away.  We were referred to a specialist unit where they immediately said they needed to get the neurologist to look at him and possibly an MRI.  The MRI showed he had a brain tumour, positioned so it was inoperable. 
We had to put Billy to sleep Friday.
It happened all so fast and I can't get over that he was still a pup and he won't be coming back.  He was our poochie like no other has ever been in our life.

So I would like to dedicate this post to Billy

RIP my beautiful boy xxxx

"If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again

No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why

Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know

But now we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store

Since you’ll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts"