So, ok now, I have wiped my mouth clean, had a workout and feeling better about what I can and cannot control in my life. I think my mental reassessment can best be described through my workout.
Back, Traps & calf day:
Warmup: lat pull downs : 3 plates x 20 (x2 sets)
Lat pull downs : 5 plates(25kg) x 12/15 / 6 plates(30kg) x 10 (2 sets)
Machine Chest Rows : 40kg x15 / 50kg x 10 (3 sets)
...... I focused on looking at my back working in the mirrors, I liked what I was seeing :-)Lying T-bar rows : 10kg x 12 (2 sets); 12½kgs x 8/10
...... it was at this point I looked up and out the open door
How amazing is this view!!!!
One arm rows : 7½kg x 15 / 10kg x 10 / 12½kg x 8
Cable T-bar rows (2 plates) & ISO Pull downs (20kgs) superset : 15 x 3sets
Shrugs : 4 plates x 15 / 5 plates x 15 / 6 plates x 10 (2 sets)
Calf Raisers : 20kg x 15 / 30kg x 13/15/13
....... it was here that I revived eating properly motivation, I call it "Muffin Motivation" :-)I made some nice moves up in some of my weights, 2½kgs here and there and boy did I feel it (in that sick good kinda way). I am not fooled that this tough time is over, far from it but I do feel like I have more of a plan, an action plan of how to get it right, that and a promise to myself not to let it get to that sick stage again - EVAR!
Going to fetch the chillies now and then go sit in the sunshine while they play in the park and try think about NOTHING :-)